I have asked myself that question more times than I can even count now.
Suddenly, at 50, I realized my second marriage was collapsing, my 12 year old son was having psycho-somatic illnesses due to the stress in the house, my 15 year old daughter had just had an emotional breakdown and my 19 year old step son was so afraid that he would be homeless. I felt like I was in a war zone. Moving from one crisis to the next. Not to mention, my business was losing revenue in the 6 digits.

That was just over 2 years. The radical change of direction in my journey brought me to a complete standstill. I began to question everything, there have been times when friends, family and associates did not understand the decisions I was making. There was a part of me that wanted their approval. But finally, I realized that I was on this journey, and that I had to make sure that the shoes I was wearing were comfortable for me. I would need to walk in them for a long time. For too many years, I had done what I was told to do, expected to do and felt obligated to do. I had to learn to trust myself.
I sat down with a list of things I wanted to take on my journey; my optimistic outlook, my leadership ability and the authentic ME. (not the person I tried to be for others) I discarded all the stuff that did not feel right.
Then I made list of things I would need to improve the long term journey. I need to get back to learning new things: business skills for a new market place, understand who I really am and what is really important to me and finally set boundaries for myself.
While 2 years may or may not sound like a long time, it has gone by with incredible speed. Business is just starting to improve, my home life is happy (younger two are healthy and the step son was never homeless) and I wake up every day excited about where the journey will take me today.
Creating a buzz…….
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