I turned 50 almost 4 years ago and got divorced the same year. Since then, it has been a time of great change and self discovery for me. Like most people, my initial reaction was run, run, run, work, kids, play, date and deny, then repeat. I did this for the first three years. I finally had to say, “what do I want?” This was not it.
This is when the self discovery started. I have read some books, enrolled in coaching and am learning to spend time with myself. Some of it difficult and at times I feel afraid ( but believe me, I never told anyone.) I realized that the running was keeping me from facing myself square on with the truth that I needed to hear.
I could spend the rest of my life alone, and I better make sure that I like myself and can do things I want by myself.
I would definitely not go out to dinner by myself unless it was my only option or happened to be traveling for work.
This year, as I wrote my goals, I reflected on what I needed to do to prepare for the time when my kids were all gone, which is only about 1 1/2 years. What would I do with all this time? I did not want to be one of those people that could only talk about their kids because they had never gotten back to themselves.
This year I will start to conquer my fear of doing things alone. My first weekend away is scheduled this month. I will let you know how it goes.
If you have finally gotten back to you, please let me know how your process went and what you did.
Creating a buzz……¯`•.¸¸.ஐ
